i loathe myself

really , i do. i have absolutely NO self control...and i cant' even throw it all back up, because i have this dumb concert at my school and i dont' have enough time. Today's weight: 128. Today's calorie intake: 400!!! that is 300 too many! i can feel them all inside me, just laughing as i try to rid myself of them....ugh. i hate myself.